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2010-11-24 09:04 pm
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I still have to get my pictures together for my post-Japan post. Wow, 2 weeks in Japan - it's such a great country. I'm paying for it now - broke and fat. But as my mum says, that's what holidays are about.

I've thrown myself back into my routine and I hurt everywhere. I can't even sit down properly at the moment because my glutes and quads are totally busted from dragonboating. I need to do more pure cardio training at the gym because I'm not as fit for basketball/oztag as I want to be - but who has the time when you work full time+ and you're on 4 sports teams?

I absolutely love dragonboating. I love how it's an absolute break from work - it's not like you go down the road and just push some weights around in the gym. I walked from work to training yesterday (right next to the Sydney Fish Markets) - the sun was shining and it's beautiful down there. It gives me this overall sense of just being really thankful of being in this spot in my life that lets me do this. I love that you're working with about 20 other people to do something tangible - rowing somewhere together, rather than staring at the wall and jumping up and down. 30 minutes ago you were at the office and now you're on the water. Two hours later you're aching, tired, generally soaked through, salty limbs and just so pleased with yourself.

All of these sports are making it so hard for me to go to the gym and just do cardio. I don't mind hefting weights around but how can you go from rowing around the ANZAC Bridge at almost sunset, playing Oztag at Jubilee Park near the water in the almost Summer sun, training outside in the Domain and then trying to then find the willpower to slog it out for 30 minutes of interval training on the stepper, inside with the muted Channel V hits on? KILLLL ME IN THE FACE.

My favourite take away from dragonboating so far was something our coach said when we were doing sprint training. We were doing minute sets and she said 'What's one minute out of your life? NOTHING' and I take that with me every time I'm hurting and I just gotta push through.
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2010-10-07 11:44 pm
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Come on ozzie

I actually did get the call up and I've managed to join an oztag team on Thursday lunchtime. I played my first game today and I was freaking out cause I've never even passed a rugby ball before. But I had the best time!!!! I was a bit unco but also managed to grab some tags, play the ball, I had a kick and even scored a try!!!!!!

Granted, the boys really set it up for me, so it wasn't like I did any crazy spin moves and sprinted faster than anyone down the pitch.

I'm really looking forward to learning how to pass properly and then getting on top of all the rules. Then...sneaky dirty tactics time!!

I've declared this summer, the summer of new things and I am loving it so far. Dragon
Boating, oztag plus my initial love of basketball (Sunday season starts this week) is a lot of effort, but I'm just smiling when I think of it all.

I recommend everyone get on board for try new things summer! I have bball tomorrow, dragon boating on sat and bball on Sunday. Flawless victory!!

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2010-10-06 12:47 am
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Draft Failure

Wednesday tomorrow and still no call up to play Oztag on Thursday :( Looks like my plans to be Benji Marshall with a sweet behind the back pass is over before it even began. I coulda been a contender!

In other news, did my second session of dragon boating tonight and I LOVED it. I was just beaming all the way home in the car. I haven't felt this way since....I started playing basketball.

I just gotta figure out how to get to the fish markets now without careening over Anzac Bridge!
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2010-10-04 10:28 pm
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Enter the Dragon

It's been a long time since I've written. I've just been getting slammed at work, so I've been pretty lack lustre. Just a busy time...I wasn't allowed to take any time off work when J was home - except for one day. Other members of my team were away, so I got stuck behind.

I sprained my thumb pretty badly at basketball about 3 weeks ago (final game of my girls' team, Sunday night comp). I couldn't even hold a hairdryer properly or open jars. It's still a bit busted. It kind of put a dent in my weights workouts, cause I couldn't hold weights. Much sadness. But I went last week and it's doable (if a little awkward).

But even if my thumb was working, I have been feeling like I am in a major rut with my routines. Add in the cold winter and I have been very slack with my eating (and oh the drinking!). It's time to wind it in now - it's still fkn cold though, which means my motivation remains low too. Who wants to eat shredded cabbage + chicken breast when it's 15C? Not me. FUUUUUUUUUUU cabbage + the cold!! Hello hearty meals + red wine!

Anyway, I decided I needed to get out of this exercise rut. So when one of my friends posted on their facebook a few weeks ago that they were looking to get enough girls together to form an all girls dragonboating crew and asked if anyone was interested. It's something I always wanted to try, so I just threw myself into it and said yes and I did my first session last Saturday. I was freaking out a bit before I got there but when all was said and done, I absolutely loved it!! Even though it was hard work and I was unco to the max. It was also 8:15am on a Saturday morning 0______O I am not a morning person. Anyway, there was just something really beautiful about being out on the water in the morning with a bunch of people, working together as a team to get this thing going through the water. It seems quite social too (everyone gets coffee afterwards) and everyone was friendly. It wasn't a high intensity heart rate work out but I can tell you now, I've discovered muscles in my butt, back and shoulders which I never even knew I had. It even hurts when I sit down. I can hopefully make my second training session tomorrow night - I can't wait!! They train Tuesday evenings and Saturday mornings, so I'm going to try and get to both sessions each week. Tuesdays might be harder because of work.

More than anything, it was a million times more interesting than using the damn rowing machine at the gym. J is going to come along too when he's back from his overseas adventures. Which will be so cool, cause we can get a running start on our weekend and do something together.

Separately, some guys at work need some more girls to play OzTag. I've never played before either - in fact, I've never played any pointy ball sports. But in the spirit of Trying New Things, I told them that I'd love to give it a go. I am also freaking out about passing and catching the pointy ball. I am hoping to get my Benji Marshall round the back trick pass downpat VERY soon. Basic catching and passing be damned. Anyway, wait and see if they need me...I'd love to give it a go!! I will lose my mind the very first time I score a try!!

My other basketball season starts up again soon, so I think my week will look like this for planned activities (provided work doesn't a ss me about):

  • Tuesday - Dragonboating training in the evening
  • Wednesday - Outdoor group training with guys at work - alternates between boxing and running each week
  • Thursday - Lunchtime Oztag (mixed)????
  • Friday - Lunchtime basketball (mixed)
  • Saturday - Dragonboating training in the morning
  • Sunday - Evening basketball (girls)

Which is infinitely more exciting than 4 x 30 minute sessions on the cardio machines. FUUUU cardio machines!

And then I've got to get to the gym and do weights 3 - 4 times a week. I would like to get back in the habit of doing workouts on Friday nights instead of going drinking. 3 - 4 times a week is going to be tricky if I'm doing all of those sports tho...but I guess I can just treat the basketball / oztag more as cardio. I can't see myself doing weights and THEN doing dragonboating though! I am not sure how it will all go....but it should be fun.

At the moment, I've only been getting to the gym 1 - 2 times a week to do weights at the moment and it's been good enough for maintenance/strength, but PSFG prime time is always summer. BOOOM.


I've been thinking a lot about my primary school sports teacher recently. She was quite a cow to anyone who wasn't a superstar at sports. When I was in primary school, I wasn't the best at sports, I couldn't swim all that well and I was shithouse at netball (which was the #1 girls sports at my school). That's not to say I got to high school and I was a super gun at sports either - the only sport I would do competitively was swimming (which I was actually got pretty good at even in my later years of primary school - but my sports teacher still thought I was pretty crap!). But I was ok at basketball, hockey, soccer...I still remained SHITHOUSE at netball though. People at work keep asking if I want to play netball and I tell them hellz no!!!!!!

I often wonder how many kids who hate sports are because of the way they are taught at school or because they had a teacher who wasn't very supportive or encouraging. Which would be such a shame. I could have easily been turned off sport and I could be missing out on all these cool things that I do.

You would think that all this sport would make me feel really healthy. But it actually just makes me feel a million years old. I still love it though. I can't wait for summer!!!
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2009-09-25 12:07 am
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Week #2 and regrouping

Week #2 Summary:

Last week didn't work out so well for me - I just didn't nail my nutrition. A combination of not prepping my food at night, just not eating enough carbs (I think) and eating so much sugar (I pretty much never eat sugar - and on Thursday I made a cake for work and got stuck into cake + cream + frosting....I think my body went into meltdown). It degenerated by the end of the week completely. I just had no energy and decided to just do light cardio/play ball in the 2nd half of the week.

The body is a funny can do the same weights/sets as the week before, but you don't fuel up right and you just can't complete the same reps/sets. I couldn't do more push ups, I couldn't feel stronger...I think I was just tired. I felt a bit bad, because I had plans to do WEEK TWO and be on point, but I just couldn't.

I was pretty disappointed overall, and it felt like a 'light' week, but it wasn't that bad really...I did one upper workout, one lower workout, one 45 min stint on the cross trainer (Cardio Coach), played 2.5 games of basketball (0.5 because Wednesday Comp had 4 girls playing - so I got like 15 mins of court time, which is barely worth writing about), played pick up basketball once and shot around casual hoops for about 3 hours on the weekend. Not too bad!

Week #3 so far - well, it's really Week #2...

As Week #2 of my program was a bit of a fail, I decided to start my Week #2 weights again this week. And so far, it's going pretty well. I've managed to up my weights on quite a few things (including the almighty bench) and am slowly creeping up on the push ups.

I am finding the One Hundred Pushups program really challenging. I am unable to complete the days and then do the next day. It takes me a few goes to master doing all the reps I need to do without breaks. I'm surprised by how quickly the reps ramp up - yesterday I had to do sets of 20, 25, 15, 15 and 25 = 100 in total with about 90 seconds of rest inbetween it. I'm throwing in some push ups with my feet elevated just to put more weight and do the upper pecs too. It's so vain, but I like how my arms/chest look after push ups :)

Anyway, it's Thursday and I've punched out so far - both my upper body workouts for the week, my hated lower body workout (one more to go), played pick up ball twice and have done Body Attack. I haven't done Body Attack for ages. I haven't gone because I've been busy, doing other things and Iker went and got married and I don't like the other instructor. However, he is back, I'm back and I'm ready to smash it up. I hate all that plyometric stuff in it (or as I call it 'jumping and shit'). Who wants to do jumping lunges over and over? NOT ME. But some good must come of all the jumping and shit surely?? It's tough going, but I have to love any class which gets my heart rate over 185 bpm. So all I have to do to round this week off is one more lower body workout, play ball on Friday and then I'm just going to shoot around on the weekend.

My Sunday comp is in recess for 2 weeks (we got kicked out of the finals :( ) and as much as I love ball, I'm SO GLAD to have a break on Sundays. The Sunday Comp ran for 20 weeks! That's insane!


My aunty is visiting from Malaysia and she brought us sweet kueh (cake) and I am getting stuck in. My favourite is the buttery pineapple tart. I'm eating those bad boys for breakfast and dinner. There's only a few left though and no more fun food in the house...There's only a handful left and I know I should just stop eating them because pineapple tarts do not feature anywhere in PSFG but I love those little buttery suckers so much.

I have gotten my work food largely back on track. I've also upped my carbs because my workouts/basketball games were dying in the ass and I am feeling so much better. I just make sure to have some sorj/flat bread with my cabbage salad. Yes, I'm back on the cabbage! Mixing it with tomatoes, zucchinis, carrots, avocado, grated apple (sometimes) and a teaspoon of pesto and light sour cream at the moment with a squeeze of lemon juice, lots of pepper and some salt. WOW, pretty exciting hey?

It's a good thing that I'm upping my sister went to order 4 potatoes (or so she thought) but then our fruit box arrived and there was no less than 4 KILOGRAMS of potatoes. That's like 21 potatoes!! A kilo of potatoes usually lasts us 2 weeks. I am having some mashed potato (minimal butter, some milk, salt + pepper) for a mid-arvo snack with some protein (generally chicken breast or kangaroo) and it makes me feel happy and good when I'm at the gym. I don't know how people with no carb/very low carb work out properly? Maybe it's a personal thing, but I just can't do anything and feel strong when I'm not getting my carbs.

For some reason, I can't bring myself to calorie king at the moment - I'm not eating badly, but just the tedium of logging food isn't working for me. I should try and get back into the habit - when I do, it's great to see if you get the right macronutrients. I am still weighing my food. I just can't be bothered logging it. EXCUSES. I hate excuses. What does excuses get you? UNINSPIRING RESULTS. BUT I just don't want to at the moment.


As you all know, I am totally focussed on PSFG. But sometimes, it's cold, I'm tired and I just want to go home. I have been channelling my thoughts down 'WWD12D?' or in its entirety 'What Would D12 Do?'. D12 = Dwight Howard, Orlando Magic's built centre and my favourite current NBA player.

So when I'm waivering about lifting or going to work out, I just think WWD12D? And we know what the answer is - keep lifting and don't make any excuses like GOING TO THE PUB. And pray. He's pretty religious. Fun fact: D12 used to get depressed when he was in high school that he was so skinny. He spoke to God and God said to him 'If you put your trust in me, I will take care of the rest'. D12 kept praying. God kept up his end of the bargain, don't you think?

Fun fact: I'm wearing my Dwight singlet right now...inspiration for the rest of the week!
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2009-09-14 11:46 pm
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Modification and Week #1 Gone

I have decided to leave Air Alert/Vertical Leap program til the basketball off-season. I can't fit it in with everything that I want to do. I'm playing basketball 3 times a week and I'm enjoying shooting around casually too much. I don't want to grind through my workouts, so I'm going to scrap it. To be honest, my time/effort will be better spent working on my shot/dribbling, so I will do that.

My goals/affirmations are going average - probably about a B-. Here's why (omitting Vertical Leap):
  • One Hundred Pushups Program - this is going well actually, it's bloody hard work though. I've just finished Week 2 of it (this is about 81 push ups in a work out) and I can do about 30 on my toes non-stop. It might actually be more when I'm rested/not sore - but I was pretty much busted towards the end of the week. Onto week 3!!!
  • 3 hours of cardio a week, minimum - this was easily smashed this week. As I always say, it's easy when you find something you love. I smashed out about 5 hours this week, but about 2 hours of that was just casual hoop shooting, so it wasn't too intense.
  • Do weights 4 times a week, x2 upper body and x2 lower body work outs - Oh boy, this was a bit of a struggle to fit in. I always drag the chain on lower body workouts because I just have so much more fun lifting weights and I have the bright lure of GUNZ to keep me going. I know, I know, I need to do leg work to help with guns. But that's not the point!!! I am loving dead lifts and calf raises at the moment. I am still hating lunges. I really want to master my form on the squat, I keep trying to think about it a lot - but I think I'm doing it wrong. There is a gym trainer (not a personal one) who power lifts (I see him on the weekend with his chains, blocks and foam). I am going to hit him up for some advice next week.

    I just find it so hard to fit in my lower leg work outs. I had to end of backing up on Wednesday night (ie. basketball Wednesday evening and then went to the gym to do weights) and on Sunday, I shot around at a local court with a team mate, went to the gym to do my lower leg work out and then a game at 10pm. Yes, I rested in between. I hate doing leg weights on game day, but I had to fit it in before end of the week!! I was just so tired on Saturday that I took it easy and didn't do any weights.
  • Commit to eating 5 small meals a day - I started the week off well but spiralled into a mess by the end of the week. It was my mate's birthday on Friday, and we went out and had drinks (with a fried chicken chaser), had a pub lunch on Saturday and then out to dinner for the same mate for his birthday on Sunday. I haven't been home enough to think of the food I need to prep. I'm getting there. Oh, but did I really need to have like 10+ drinks on Friday night?!?! My food effort this week was probably about a 5 out of 10.
  • Commit to taking my supplements religiously - I went average with this one...I took my protein shake and glutamine/creatine pretty much exactly when I should have. As for my fish oil supplements, that was a total fail (um, 3 capsules this week). And I took zero multi-vitamins. Oh, and as for the gluggy calcium caseinate powder - I can't find the stuff anywhere in the house?? Where could it be? It has NO OTHER use than to be in the kitchen!!
  • Sleep more - TOTAL AND UTTER FAIL. I THINK there was maybe one night when I got to bed just before midnight. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF? I am seriously thinking of seeing a hypnotherapist about this - has anyone tried one?!

So overall, I am doing all the activity right, but not getting the food/recovery right. I need to get my diet/supplements right - otherwise there's no point working so hard about it all. I have had a total fail today on the diet front too, because I gave blood today and I was just like a deflated balloon after that. I was just so flat and was craving sugar hard. I had a chocolate milkshake, choc chip cookies, mars bar and doritos after my donation and then went on to have a caramel toffee chaser at the office. For those that no me, I NEVER EVER eat candy at work. So at least there's a pretty logical reason for it - I gave away 600mL of blood and my body wanted a bit of sugar.

BUT THERE ARE NO MORE EXCUSES TOMORROW FOR EATING LIKE THAT. Well, unless I decide to give away another 600 mL of blood :)

I read this girl's blog (Fit Lizzio) and she wrote a great post about stuff that she loves about her lifestyle. It really inspired me - so here is the list of things that I LOVE about my lifestyle/choices that I make:

  • I love it when I set up a solid screen on the boys at basketball, and I can take most of the impact without moving. My head swells with pride when the boys on my team ask how much I squat cause I'm so solid on my screens. Oh, and I don't squat a lot at all :(.
  • I love it when we've just played a fast paced game of ball, bull doze the other team, secure the win and I'm breathing so hard at the end I think I'm going to pass out.
  • I love doing weights at the gym, pushing myself on how heavy I can lift and getting my form right. I take secret pleasure in watching girls doing weights all wrong.
  • I love doing more pushups every session, more than the one before. I love being one of the few girls at the gym who bothers doing them on my toes.
  • I love when I do get my food right (both in amount and timing) and I am never hungry, eat the right proportions of macronutrients and train with heaps of energy.
  • I love it when I see a vague hint of a future vision of PSFG. Come on guns, I am ready for you!!!!
  • I love having a nutritious, tasty meal after a killer session.
  • I love knowing that I am better this week, than I was last week.
  • I love hearing about other people who are taking charge of their fitness and are just going for it

How are all you guys going? Tell me about it!!
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2009-09-05 03:58 pm
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Recommencement of PSFG

Since coming back from holidays, I'm trying to get my head around changing up my exercise program and cracking back down on the diet. I was pretty happy with how things were going before holidays except for the last month when I was sick, tired and just really depressed about everything (you know, the three deaths and all of people I knew, kinda made it hard for me to drag myself to the gym all the time). Never mind - it is a new month, new 3 month bachelorette stint (J went back to the Solomons on Thursday morning) and most importantly, I've got a new desire and sense of commitment to fitness and health.

So, to reaffirm my next 3 months - these are my new goals/affirmations:

  • Complete the One Hundred Pushups program - once I get this under my belt, I am going to go and smash out 100 push ups, non-stop in front of my former trainer who told me that he would struggle to do 100. Whatev, bitch - I'm better off without you. I'm currently only half way through the second week and it's pretty tough. You pretty much do 4 sets of varying different reps with a 60 - 90 second break inbetween. It does mean that already on Week 2, Day 2 the total reps is already over 70. I challenge all the girls out there to man up, get off your knees and start doing proper push ups!!!! If you're doing Pump/Combat, try and do at least one set on your toes.
  • Improve my vertical leap - I'm going to start doing Air Alert next week, which promises to increase your vertical leap 8 - 14 inches. I am NOT looking forward to it, because it's a plyometric workout (plyometric = "jumping and shit", well that's what I call it) and I HATE plyometrics. It pretty much requires jumping/stepping/lunging every second day for 15 weeks in total. I can touch the bottom of the net at the moment and not to say that it will happen, but if I could touch the rim this would make me so unbelievably happy. J reckons that I'll be able to dunk (UM, OK) because he says I have a core of steel that I don't even know about when I set my mind to something Let's see and let the jumping and shit begin.
  • 3 hours of cardio a week, minimum. This shouldn't be too hard actually considering I'm now playing on 3 basketball teams a week (two mixed teams via work and one girls team on the weekend), usually playing 1 'pick up'/informal outside basketball session a week and the Air Alert commitment. Add a couple of Cardio Coach sessions and Body Attack, and I will be laughing!
  • Do weights 4 times a week, x2 upper body and x2 lower body work outs - I was messing around with x2 sets of 20 reps and I largely do x3 sets of 8 - 12 reps. But I've found a program I'm going to try...where you do x3 sets of 8 - 12 reps for the first month, x3 sets of 6 - 8 reps for the second month and x3 sets of 4 - 6 reps for the third month. I'm going to cry like a baby!! But I'm also interested in seeing how heavy I can go without busting my form.
  • Commit to eating 5 small meals a day - with each meal containing the right base macronutrients (ie. carbs, protein, fats). I'm not going to go totally clean and I'm still going to drink / eat out (unfortunately, that's where our society really socialises isn't it). But, it's not going to be like 4 cocktails with every meal, with a pannacotta chaser. This isn't too bad actually, because it's pretty much what I've been doing over the last few months. But boy or boy, does it take a lot of time to prepare all that food for work.
  • Commit to taking my supplements religiously. I started trialling glutamine and creatine, but it didn't work out that well because I stopped training regularly (due to all the stuff going on) and you are meant to take the stuff for 30 days continuously to see if it has any effect. I need to start taking my fish oil supplements every day. I need to take my multi-vitamins. I need to take my protein shakes after training and need to commit to the heinous night time calcium caseinate shake. On top of that, I have to prep all my food. My life is pretty fkn exciting.
  • SLEEP MORE. I will fail at this. I know I will. Especially cause I end up watching Ultimate Fighter 8 at 12am (and it finishes at 1am) almost every night. I really need to sleep more. I am desperately sleep deprived but I can't stop staying up. FAIL FAIL FAIL.

I'm actually struggling a bit with figuring out how to fit in all the push ups, weights, cardio, basketball + plyometrics and letting myself have adequate rest. I've recently joined a third basketball team for Wednesday nights and I think it won't be too taxing as it's only 2 x 15 min halve and we have 4 girls playing (x2 on court at any one time) So I will get 3 mins or playing time probably (ok, exaggeration - but I hate playing with anymore than 3 girls for a mixed team). I am, no joke, going to have to open up excel and draw up a spreadsheet to figure this out. I don't want to overtrain because it will just mean that I will blow up mentally and/or physically. Yeah, and work is full on too at the moment. I think I might even have to (GASP) do before work work-outs, which never usually work for me because I like sleeping in too much (oh, and I go to sleep at 1am cause I'm watching UFC...)

Coming back from holidays, I always maintain the best thing to do is just hit the gym hard ASAP. No easing back into it, just shock your body and let it realise that the fun times are over. The holiday wash up hasn't been too bad - I've lost a little muscle, I feel a bit thicker around the side chubbas and my cardio fitness is gone. But it's not been an out and out weigh gain, no gunz scenario. I must confess that eating 'healthy' is much harder once you have been on an out and out splurge for 2 weeks. I miss drinking cocktails. I miss French cheese. I miss croissants for breakfast. I miss dessert with meals. But, I am just settling back into my normal routine.

The cabbage shredding has begun and yesterday was my first red cabbage salad in weeks! I love it - as a fibrous cruciferous vegetable, it has more fibre and bite to it than lettuce and makes me feel full for longer. I usually grate up 300g of cabbage, mix it with whatever veg I have on hand (tomato, avo, carrot, zucchini), some roasted turkey breast and mix it with lemon juice (to break it down a bit), olive oil, salt, pepper and sesame dressing and split it into 2 portions for work. I added a shredded Granny Smith yesterday on [ profile] spookylolly's suggestion and the sweet tart apple just gave it another dimension. LOVE IT.

I've also got a new favourite snack - I freeze peeled bananas and then I blend one up with a teaspoon of peanut butter and it's like ice-cream. It sounds crazy, but the banana goes creamy, rather than icey - and if you use ripe bananas, it's sweet. If you don't like bananas, this will be a dessert fail for you. But if you do like bananas and miss having ice-cream, I'd recommend giving this a go.

Anyway, it's 4pm and I was hoping Juanzo would be online (but he wasn't). Should look at dragging myself to the gym!
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2009-07-30 12:39 am
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Things to Commit To

2 weeks off from the gym and I am carrying a bit more around my middle than I like. Nothing that a one week blitz won't fix (ie. i can see and feel it, but I doubt most other people have even noticed). I have to knuckle down hard and am going to try and do 3 days lower carbs/cals (around 1800 calories) and 1 day higher carbs/cals (around 2100 calories). It's not all that glamorous though - for dinner tonight I had 150g of shredded cabbage, 170g of kangaroo and 100g of chicken breast. I bulk out my lunches with shredded carrot and zucchini. I'm never hungry because I eat all the time, but sometimes the vegetable excitement is a little too much for me.

NO BOOZE either unless it's a) my birthday b) a work dinner or c) our team wins the basketball grand final. I've got a work dinner on 06AUG and it's my birthday next week too - my sis and I are going to celebrate it on the Saturday and I intend on drinking at least half a bottle of champagne.

Things I am going to commit to (even though I am breaking one of them right now):

1. SLEEPING MORE. I am chronically sleep deprived. I know exactly why this is - I work late, I go to the gym and by the time I get home it's usually 8:30pm or 9:00pm. So I eat some food, wash up, prep my food for the next day, relax for like OH, 5 minutes and it's 12:15am. Then I wake up 6 hours later. This is not good for my health, sanity or training.

2. MIX UP MY CARDIO. I am loving basketball and cardio coach still. But I want to keep things fresh before I get bored...I'm even thinking about learning to play touch footy even though I've never played pointy ball sports in my life. Apparently there's a casual Wednesday muck around that goes down in the city and my boss (who plays) reckons it'd be the top place for me to learn. I always get so apprehensive learning new sports, but then when you do, it can take over your life, heart and dreams!!! (Exhibit A: HOOPS).

3. COMMIT TO LEGS WORKOUT. I HATE doing legs. Seriously. Omg, cue [ profile] spookylolly's voice right the fuck now 'If you want guns you need to thrash your legs so you get the human growth hormone'. I KNOW I KNOW. And I do my legs workout but I don't like it and it's boring. I'd take upper body ANY other day of the week. Ha, and in fact I do.

4. TAKE MY DAMN CALCIUM CASEINATE SHAKE EVERY NIGHT. I fucken hate this shit, I really do. It's so hard to manage and despite the website claiming that it can be made in a shaker it is an OUT AND OUT LIE. I tried it tonight and it made lumps of congealed protein everywhere. Then I tried to transfer it to our blender...except the base wasn't screwed in and it leaked all over the bench. Then I used my sister's new stick blender which worked a treat. Except I forgot to put my raw cacao powder in. And now I'm having a lumpy shake anyway. And had to wash three different appliances. Shame this stuff is so good for you. Shame it is so gluggy and such a pain in the ass to prepare which is why I always wuss out on making it!!!

5. TAKE ALL MY SUPPLEMENTS REGULARLY. I need to start taking y fish oil capsules religiously. I need to make sure I do things consistently. I need a good multi-vitamin which isn't Ultivite Swiss. You heard me google ads, which ISN'T Ultivite Swiss. Put that in your ad generator.

6. GET TO 50 PUSH UPS. I'm not doing too bad on this one, I can punch out 20ish on a good day. But I just gotta commit to doing them often.

More as I think of them...think I will order my kettlebell to arrive for Monday!! They're so expensive though...Oh well, with my trainer gone, I have a little bit more $$$ to spare.

Back to finishing my shake and then committing to sleeping...


Almost 2 weeks and my man is home!! I can't believe I haven't seen him for 2.5 months :( Then, we will soon be chilling in Bali together, drinking booze and having a hardcore relax. Can't wait.
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2009-07-27 11:53 pm
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Back to Reality

Back from Perth yesterday...pretty tough week on everyone. I've never been to the funeral of someone who is really close to you before. I'm too tired to write about it properly or think about it - but while it's sad and I miss my Mah-Mah a lot (and haven't really gotten used to the idea that I won't see her again in this life), she wasn't having the best time when she left us. I just try to think that she wouldn't want us to be sad but to remember the good things. I gave the eulogy at her funeral which I was so scared about losing my composure at - but I asked her to give me the strength to only remember the good things and it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be to hold it together. I didn't get to tell the really great stories though, like when she told me 'Mah Mah say, how you say in English - FUCK YOUR MUM, not bad English at all lah'. Ahahahaha, what a legend.

We also went to the casino in her honour and her number came up 3 times on the roulette wheel. We left her chips/Burswood card in her purse when we buried her, so we know where she is. Not bad, we made $400 out of $20! The numbers that came up were her birthday (13) - TWICE in a row and the date of her birth (17). Cue the Twilight Zone music...

All I can say is that to those of you who still have your grandparents, call and see them as much as you can now...I tried to call mine as much as I could and it's nice that when they do go that you don't have any regrets about not having made the effort. Don't leave it too late!

I really feel for my gramps though...60 years (almost) of marriage and now he's all on his own. I don't know what I would do without my Juanzo and it hasn't even been 4 years!! I mean, he'll get a carer 3 times a week and my mum will see him for dinner most nights...But still, breakfast on your own, lunch on your own, sleeping on your own...He hasn't touched any of her stuff and wants to leave it all there (like her reading glasses by the TV and all her stuff in her bathroom) and he says he still feels my gran sleeping beside him - which is really sweet but utterly heart breaking at the same time.


In the more mundane, I've pretty much had 2 weeks off for training due to having some virus and then having to go to Perth this week. I also took 2 weeks off from eating properly and in Perth it was a white bread, buttery pineapple tart, eating out disaster fest. I did Body Attack today and wearing my favourite Nike workout outfit couldn't even help this jiggly puff. PSFG has had a serious set back (I'm hoping some brutal arms sessions will get them back and mean that months of effort hasn't disappeared totally) and as for PCTA...I'd mentally committed to doing it, but now I'm going to have to do a bit more leaning before it can happen.

I was so lost for food today because our house has no fruit or veg in it...I had to buy lunch and not have tubs of snacks with me. It was quite upsetting. I had great plans to hop straight back onto the fitness/diet bandwagon but no food in house + late night at work = average diet + 1 body attack class today. Tomorrow I have lunch at Bambini Trust and then after that NO MORE BETS *does the roulette table action* PSFG/PCTA is recommencing!! I'm even thinking of seeing if I can cut my cals back to 1800...I dunno, my dietitian told me I was allowed a cool 2000 a day and I shoould still strip fat.

While in Perth, I also had a bit of a splurge and bought a Cohen Et Sabine matt silver mini sequin v-neck dress (it's pretty outrageous - human mirror ball or bream, I'm not sure which), a Cohen Et Sabine matt black sequin top with crochet detail and a Won Hundred (Danish brand) black dress with crazy twist detail. I really want some outrageous heels to go with them, but not quite sure where to get them from and more importantly, can I really be bothered with heels?? If a totally sequinned dress doesn't inspire me to keep flogging my ass at the gym with Cardio Coach and PSFG - WHAT WILL?

Thinking of ordering my kettlebell for Monday...exciting!! :)
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2009-07-20 10:20 pm
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The End

On Friday:

Trainer: 'If u would like to continue dont worry about paying for this w. U are always reliable and I appreciate that and I know your sick this wk. Sorry again. Hope u accept my apology'

I couldn't be bothered texting back cause I was so sick and more importantly ANGRY. Yes, that's right - I am always reliable!!! Genius!

On Monday:

'Hi, hope your feeling better. Did u get my text on fri?'


Me: 'Yes. Sorry have been meaning to text back. You're a good trainer and I'm not upset. I have just decided to pursue my fitness goals on my own and try a few new things. Will drop your cash off tomorrow.'

In retrospect, it would have been funnier to have perhaps have used '$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$' instead of cash or even 'CASH' instead of 'cash'.

I'm so angry!! But you know what, it's probably for the best because I didn't really need him and he was expensive. I'm excited to start doing things for myself again and reading/researching what to do next. I think I want to try kettlebells and resistance bands next. And kayaking in the summer. And more basketball outdoor hoops. Maybe picking up tae kwon do. And fine tuning my diet so I can lean down further (I'm in ok shape, my fitness is ok, but I'd like to be leaner) and just trying new things.

You don't need people who are 'aiding' your fitness who can't cut you a break when you're genuinely sick. Sure, the guy has got to eat, but you have to cultivate relationships in order for them to keep them going. Professional or personal. I hope he enjoys the last $80 from me - he could have probably got a few more sessions from him.

To the next chapter - PSFG and PCTA here we come. I think I'm going to try it (when I'm back from Perth). I did a trial run today and ate a lot of chicken breast, cabbage and measured carb serves. It wasn't that bad but it wasn't that exciting.

Flying to Perth tomorrow...will be a tough few days.
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2009-07-17 02:49 pm
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Trainer Dumping

By text:

'Hi, too sick to train this week'

'Hey ok, sorry your not feeling well. As a once off, we can do 2 sessions next wk if u want? So u dont hav to pay for weds. Its up to u?'

'Hi, will pay you for this week but won't be booking another session. Thanks'

SENT. LET'S SEE WHAT HE SAYS. I just find it all a bit distasteful!!

Edit: 'Hey, sorry can i ask u why?'

Edit #2: J's suggestion for reply:

"I think you need to be more flexible with your best client, who isn'ta fattie and makes you look good... And now I have lost faith in whether you really care. I'm sorry, it's over. Don't call me ever again."

Edit #3: I haven't replied his answer yet, but he just sent:

'hey if i upset u then i apologise. That was not my intention. i dont want to charge u for weds, thats why i was trying to move session to antoher day or next wk. i know your sick this wk. sorry again. hope you accept my apology'

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2009-07-13 12:47 am
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They say that abs start in the kitchen. I've been giving it some serious thought this weekend as to whether I will ever be able to commit to getting abs. I'm thinking that I don't have it. Seriously, maybe I was thinking this after a boozey night out, Italian dinner + tiramisu. But still. I just don't know if I could ever commit to being so strict with my diet to the points where PSFA (Project Sweet Fkn Abs) would even be a vague possibility. That's pretty soft isn't it? But I don't think I can commit to 'giving up' things like bread, peanut butter and milk. I'm not too devastated on this though, because we all know what the primary project is...PSFG!!!

The real test is going to be the next few weeks - I'm going to be really flat out at work (I even went in today) and if I can hold together the exercise, diet and work my ass off, then I know that I've truly made a commitment. It's going to be hard - when you're stressed and tired, the last thing you want to do at 7:30pm is drag yourself to the gym. Anyway, I'm going to do my best to try and hold it together. One of the things I always think about is President Obama - who gets his skinny little self to the gym 6 times a week. And sure, I don't have housekeeping or a chef to keep my life ticking alongg, but if he can make time, what's my excuse??

PSFG continues to roll on. Have made an adjustment to try and do a double bicep set every now and again and then also going against my trainer's advice and doing 3 sets of 12 reps again at a heavier weight. Have also ordered more protein powder/supplements, so I'm back on the heinous gluggy calcium caseinate night time protein shakes (it truly is drinking your medicine) and I'm also trying out creatine/l-glutamine, to see if it makes any difference to my stamina/performance. I think I have show 'mini-guns' though - I was on the court tonight and these other girls were muscling past me to box out. And I should be stronger and boxing out like there's no tomorrow, but I was just standing there like a show pony. FAIL. Who wants all show, no go??

In my most devastating piece of basketball news, I had a total captain fail and told my team the wrong time for Friday's game :( Luckily, it didn't affect our final standing on the ladder. But I was so annoyed with myself because my top 3 hates are wasting people's time, being disorganised and fucking up the details. And I managed to do ALL THREE. My team were so good about it and weren't mad at me at all, but I just felt like such a failure. I think the only thing that saved me is that I am usually a pretty great captain (yeah, there's spreadsheets and yes, I write down post-game reports on the other team so we can remember which team is which). The only thing to do now is to win the title!!!! The grand final is on my birthday, so it will either be worst birthday ever or best birthday ever. Here's hoping!


In other news, I am really missing my man. It's almost been 2 months now and I just feel so lost. The only good thing about all of this is, it's made me realise how much you really care for someone when they're not around, so you can take them for granted. It's just really lonely at the moment. I feel a bit like a Smiths song - you know, 'so you leave on your own, and you go home and you cry and you want to die' - except my version's a little less morose and I go home, cook dinner, wash up and watch tv til I pass out. I absolutely CANNOT wait til we get to spend some quality time together in Perth/Bali/Sydney! It's going to be amazing.
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2009-07-06 01:11 am
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Carbo Wonderland

Since upping my daily food intake to roughly 2000 calories, I've noticed the following things:
  • I feel a lot better/stronger at the gym and at basketball. I have more energy, the weights seem 'easier' (in the sense of doing it, I am still busting a gut).
  • In respect of muscle, I think I'm gaining more muscle weight Come on PSFG!!!
  • In respect of 'measurements', I do not think I am gaining but I don't think I'm losing much around my waist either..this is just based on eyeballing. I KNOW I KNOW, I should be measuring. None of my clothes fit anymore, so let's just run with that.
  • I do feel so bloated from food sometimes at night, because I'm eating more than normal...But in the morning, this is fine again.
  • I haven't kept an eye on weight because a) I don't have a pair of accurate digital scales and b) I fluctuate quite a bit even when my measurements keep going down.
  • My appetite has really increased - I am pretty much hungry all the time, even though I am eating more than I probably have all year. I am largely sticking to eating every 3 hours and my hunger is under control. But it's at night after dinner that I feel just so hungry. I've got to get back onto the Calcium Casseinate (it's like a slow release gluggy night time protein) which will sort this out I think. OH and the cabbage too. I stopped eating it because I got a little bored of preparing it (the eating it was fine!).
  • I've gone carbo crazy!!! I just want to eat carbs all the time - I partly blame my dietitian for this who said I can have 3 carb serves a day, with 1 serve of carb = 2 slices of bread. So some days I have FOUR pieces of bread (1 for breakfast, 1 for a snack and 2 for lunch for a sandwich) and pasta for dinner and it feels like a glorious carbo wonderland party where the confetti is whole grains and my heart is on fire, basking in the glow of the most glorious macronutrient in my book - CARBS.

It's funny how your body can get so used to something and then you change it a little bit and you just feel so out of control for a bit. I've had a big cardio week and quite unintentionally as well. I wonder if this is tied into why I've had such a craving for carbs and why I feel so hungry/want to eat all the time. As I've mentioned before, I am a big believer in writing down your exercise routines so you can assess what's working and what's not working. At the end of each week, I add up all my cardio minutes and what weight sessions I did to see if I met the bare minimum prescribed by my trainer (x2 arms sessions, x 2 legs and at least 2.5 hours cardio). This week was a bit crazy - I ended up doing over 6 hours of cardio and 3 arms/upper body sessions and 2 legs sessions. It broke down like this:
  • Monday: Rest
  • Tuesday: 60 minutes of pick up ball (ie. informal outside ball), 60 minutes Cardio Coach on Cross Trainer and 30 mins legs.
  • Wednesday: 30 minutes boxing with trainer and 30 mins arms.
  • Thursday: Weights only (no time for cardio, did a 10 minute warm up on the rower before weights)
  • Friday: 30 minutes of shooting hoops (mixed ball game was cancelled), 60 minutes Cardio Coach on Cross Trainer and 30 mins arms weights
  • Saturday: 60 minutes of shooting hoops
  • Sunday: 45 minutes of pick up ball, 45 mins arms, 30 minutes of game ball (girls)

It sounds arduous, but because I love basketball so much, the minutes didn't feel as painful as gym cardio minutes. You have to love that. Today was the best (well, besides losing our girls game), I went down to the local court to just practise shooting, but ended up crashing a random pick up game that was in progress and played half court / full court with a bunch of random guys. I love pick up more than normal games sometimes...I like playing with the guys - you learn more, they play 'tougher' and well, I guess you never find groups of girls playing pick up. What a fiend I've become...I remember when I was reluctantly joining a Sunday team and now I'm playing pick up with guys I don't even know. LIVE IT, LOVE IT ♥

I wore my Heart Rate monitor for the first time ever when I was shooting hoops on Sat and playing pick up on Sunday and was really surprised how hard I was working during it. Not quite as full on as a slog on the cross-trainer doing Cardio Coach, but infinitely more enjoyable. Today during pick up, my heart rate got up over 190 and I 'burned' around 450 cals over 45 mins. I think I might try and go down to the courts more on the weekend to shoot around, practise dribbling and rebounding, rather than doing time at the gym. It's nicer to be outside and doing something more stimulating. Even if I fricken love Cardio Coach so much!! It's the best way to deal with a bad situation

Oh, and I thought PSFG was going pretty well until I saw this girl on the treadmill to day and the girl had some serious guns going on. JEALOUS. It's ok though, I'll put it into the inspiration file and pull it out when I want to slack off and stay at home and watch Foxtel in my red Lazypatch doona suit til my eyes bleed...

I think all the food stuff I write about makes it sound like I'm crazy obsessed with my food and I spend all my time thinking about it and not really enjoying it anymore. I watched a show today which called people like me 'over-zealous' - slaves to logging food calories and weighing food. Which isn't true at all. Everything I eat I enjoy, and there are some days when I decide NOT to enter anything into Calorie King and just enjoy the day. For me, I do this because I'm not trying to lose weight nor enter a figure competition so I look at it this way - I like to know what I'm eating and making sure it's on track, but some days you just got to enjoy things so you can look after your head too.

So this week - things I do that other people might judge as 'wrong':
  • I ate peanut butter, with jam on toast every day for breakfast.
  • I pretty much eat avocado every day.
  • I drank several glasses of glorious red wine at a friend's place on Thursday (I don't really drink during the week anymore and I can tell you now that I absolutely and sincerely miss mid-week red wine.).
  • I made a lemon tart for Thursday's dinner - stacked with cream, butter, eggs, sugar - and I ate 2 slices of it on Thursday and Friday.
  • I've eaten 100g of grainwaves this weekend.
  • I bought goat's cheese for the first time in ages and ate some (ok, granted not a lot - like 10g each time! It was glorious though)
  • I ate 500g of asian noodles over 3 meals this weekend.

But, I worked hard this week and sure if I was being 'perfect' I wouldn't have done the above. But I don't want to be perfect, I just want to be happy, healthy and strong. I'm a big believer that if you're sensible, happy, working hard and listening to what your body is trying to tell you, that all the stuff you want your body to do will come.

Today's question: What do you miss eating/drinking?

For me, my top 5 is:
  • Red wine - there is no real substitute to having red wine with dinner
  • Potato chips - OMG, I msis potato chips so much
  • Hot chips - wahhhhhhhhhhh, the closest I get to this is a potato, microwave it til it's soft, smash it, lightly spray it with canola oil and roast it at 200C for 15 minutes. It's actually pretty good, but it isn't as good as chips.
  • Soft cheese - blue brie hole in my heart right now...
  • Friday night drinks - instead of drinking with colleagues to celebrate Friday, I skip the booze and go to the gym instead. My god, this is the training session that requires the most will power of them all...I console myself with the fact that at the gym on Friday night, there is a lot of honk there, refining their charms. Oh hai! How you doing??